Living with this fear of abandonment is so hard, they say we're not our mental illness, but it's so hard to separate the two; me, and my illness. For example I've had this one friend I've known for 16 years, we've been on and off friends that whole time, sometimes we're great, like family, and [...]
Does anyone else struggle with indecisiveness? I'm currently studying and doing work placement, one day I'll be feeling like 'Yep, this job is for me! I can do this! For the first time ever I actually know what I want to do! Yay!'.....next day I'm dragging my feet thinking ' I can't do this, what [...]
I think a lot of the problems we have with having BPD is accepting who we are. I can't speak for everyone of course, only for myself, but I've found one of the hardest things to deal with is my lack of identity. I tend to switch and swap and change my "personality" depending on [...]
Sometimes when I feel angry or depressed I want to reach out to people in my life or online to express my feelings, my anger, my sadness or frustration. It's like this overwhelming need to be heard, understood, and validated. The problem with this you can't get true validation from others, validation is like a [...]
I can't speak for everyone of course, this is just based on my own personal experiences, and I may be biased because personally, I kinda hate people in general and am a quiet Introvert, 😂. But I personally think having long distance online friends are better than friends in person as a BPD support system. [...]
One thing that's crucial in having BPD is having a good solid support system. In the past I always turned to a one friend or one family member, and maybe you've had this experience too but due to constantly going to that person on a continual basis it always ended with tension or put strain [...]
Something occurred to me today which got me thinking, I was thinking back on the intrusive thoughts and paranoid delusions I've had in the past. There have been times in the past where I'll be walking to town and on my walk I'll see the same faces, same people, all walking the same route as [...]
I use to look at all the people I didn't have in my life, and I felt so depressed, lonely, rejected and lost. It felt like no-one in this world loved me. I lost my external family, not that they ever cared because they truly didn't. I lost my very few friends I've ever had [...]
One thing I've been trying lately to help with my anxiety is at the end of my day writing Gratitude bubbles, I have to write minimum 3 gratitude bubbles a day, at least. It could be the smallest thing I liked or enjoyed or something big, or even something I'm excited about for the future, [...]
I talked my husband into going for a spontaneous impulsive road trip this afternoon, so we packed up a bag, got the kids ready and took off to a small nearby town over an hour away to check out the beach and parks etc. I was so excited to go and couldn't wait to go [...]
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